SONG FOR TODAY

Tuesday ~ August 30th 2005
Parabola/Ticks and Leeches - Tool
Such power.
"This body, this body holding me
Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion"

Wednesday~ july 27th, 2005
Yesterday is tomorrow is Today - David Gray

~FriDaY~July 22nd, 2205 (check the date! I can travel in time~~~)
raincheck - ani difranco
listened to this at least 8 times today.

~Saturday ~July 2nd, 2005
Middle Class Gangsters - Matthew Good Band
Two days OUT OF TIME

~Wednesday~ JUNE 29th 2005
Office Space - Sweatshop Union
This is not like my workplace. Fuck that, but what a fun song!

Monday, JUNE 27th 2005'
If 6 were 9 - Jimi Hendrix

`Tuesday`= June 21st 2005
Burnin' Streets - Joe Strummer and the Mescaleros
Everyday I love this song

~Saturday~June 18 2005
Downtown Train - Tom Waits
I only knew the Rod Stewart version. How embarassing!

MONDAY ~ April 4
Sweet Ones - Sarah Slean
How awesome is this gal?

Wednesday~Mar 30
At the Bottom of Everything - Bright Eyes

~Thursday~Feb 3rd 2005
Violin Concerto No.2 in G mnr op. 63-Prokofiev
It's like its got me like a hook in the chest.

~Wednesday~ Feb 2nd 2005
Mr. Bitterness - M. Doughty
DK

~Friday~AUGUST 27th 2004
Squaredance - eminem

~Friday~ August 20th 2004
Ain't got time - Agent Sumo remix. DJ Czech
Moving on. So much stuff to be done. Saturday will be perfect. Manana.

~Friday~Aug 13th 2004
Up against the wall - Be Good Tanyas
I think when i have a good chunk of songs i am going to ask otis to burn me a SONG FOR TODAY cd. whatta you say O?

~THURS~Aug 12th 2004
Gathering Dust - David Gray
"Oh the night is raining on my weary head.."

~Wednesday~August 11th 2004
Payback - Slayer
-It felt so good and one of these days I will be able to say the chorus along fast enough to keep up.

~SUNDAY~ August 8th 2004
Snowblind - System of a Down (Sabbath Cover?)
Fierce.

~SATURDAY~ Aug 7th 2004~
My War - (Revamped Black Flag) Rollins Band-Rise Above
If something is going to hold me together today, let it be anger.

~THURSDAY~AUG 5th 2004~
THAT duet from Les Pecheurs de Perles-Bizet
-Pure beauty.

~WEDNESDAY~Aug 4th 2004~
Crazy Train - Ozzy Osbourne
-You can catch crazy disease from this man.

~TUESDAY~Aug 3RD 2004
AEnema - Tool
-Monday, monday monday! on a Tuesday. I love working in Publishing again.

~MONDAY, Aug 2nd 2004~
Do Whatcha Like - Digital Underground
-Long weekend.

~FRIDAY, July 30th 2004~
Hey - Pixes
- HEY! How wonderous is the music of the Pixies?

~THURSDAY, JULY 29th 2004~
I Drove All Night - Cyndi Lauper
-Good poundy drumming. The Celine Dion version licks pouch in comparison.

me and B.

My sister and I are as starkly different as we are very similar. We are envious of one another’s strengths, as they are juxtaposed qualities/talents. B. is very good in school and always has been. She applies herself rigorously and succeeds but I have never really been good academically. Often, (more often than not) I was conforming. In Grade 12 I had a Biology teacher who was inspiring. He had an engaging way of teaching and I sought his praise and approval. I did well in that class. Biology is fascinating to me and that fascination seems to run in the family. My father is a doctor, as was his father*.) I also did well in Music but that was it. In all other classes I was "coasting". I don’t apply myself. I am intensely passive/ aggressive and stubborn when forced to do things. I don’t learn well in mass-production learning situations. I don’t like to sit at desks and take notes on boring topics where the concept is just regurgitation on command.
The concept of learning in academic surroundings such as university is so attractive. All that knowledge! I am doomed to never succeed in that relm so I will have to learn independantly.  I attended a university prep school - private and for that reason I feel like a failure for not obtaining that crucial piece of paper, if only to cram up my parents ass.  God love 'em.  I seek their approval too.  How sad.
 
*My father’s, fathers’ father was a biologist!

My Sister

...I wrote about you:
Entitled "It's in the genes"
In between frequent trips to the bathroom and selections of Henry Rollins' spoken word, I have attempted to begin an entry. I have a great desire to write but have little to say. I feel the need to create something. My sister is a great creator. She's like a little McGuyver, making crazy cool shit out of nothing....bringing together discarded wrappers, shards of CD's, twine, cardboard and other daily refuse to make something recognizable as having value and beauty. She envies me my ability to "do school"--to succeed academically. And I envy her need and ability to create. She has a vegetable garden. I have a few frail plants, and look forward to the days of my life when I might have a patch of grass and a few things growing in the ground. B.

'Ball

This summer’s softball season is almost over. My team has done so well this year. We’ve been doing well the whole time with been together – this version of the team. It’s a special mixture of personalities..all women. Unstoppable. There's nothing hotter then women doing something they're good at. I'm never been into competition. This is my only real sports team experience. I played net ball extremely briefly in elementary school.
I play on other softball team, but it’s a non-competitive slowpitch team opposed to a semi-competitive fastpitch which I am more familiar with. They’re a group of men mostly. I feel a little alienated on that team. I’m keeping it up though because I love the game. It’s really the only sport I like to play.

July 27th -
The season is over!Not exactly a spinetingling final tournie. It wasn't close. Three losses to one win. It was a fun time though. The weather was scorching. Almost to hot for baseball.

Fervor

Frustration levels at an all time high. Quitting smoking is not a task for the weak. I’ve been trying to quit for about four years. I’ve tried it all. The patch, gum, acupuncture, Zyban. Zyban is just bad news. The patch works the best of all methods but any trauma and it’s easy to run back to the cigs.
Eventually I will have to accept that it’s all about the power of the mind. I don’t want lung cancer. I don’t want to pay $8.50 + every two days. All I’m doing is putting money down on my next chest infection. I’ve come within an inch of pneumonia half a dozen times. Gotta remember that!

Wacky News

BERLIN (Reuters) - A U.S. sportswear maker has designed shoes that expand to fit a child's growing feet and is trying them out on cost-conscious German shoppers, the company said Tuesday.
The "Max, der Wurm" (Max the worm) shoe, first delivered to stores in Germany last week, has a flexible design with an extending concertina panel between the toe and heel.
One push of a silver button and the panel can be lengthened to accommodate quickly growing feet and bring relief to frustrated parents who want to avoid buying their children countless pairs of new shoes.
Bernadette Lingg, a spokeswoman for K2 Inc, an American sporting goods firm, said it was targeting Germany where shoppers' keen eye for a bargain has been sharpened by economic worries that prompt many to think twice before opening their wallets.
"Our main focus is Germany. The German market for children's shoes is in a terrible state due to the number of imported models and aggressive prices," she said.

LONDON (Reuters) - British treasure hunters were warned on Tuesday to stay away from a colony of red squirrels after a best-selling newspaper reported the rare creatures' nature reserve may be hiding a $46,000 engagement ring.
The diamond and platinum ring was thrown into the Formby Point nature reserve near Liverpool, northwest England, by the fiancee of 18-year old soccer star Wayne Rooney after a row, the Sun tabloid said.
Rooney, who earns more than $90,000 a week, became a national hero after a sparkling performance while playing for England during the Euro 2004 soccer competition this summer in Portugal.
The National Trust conservation group said the 300 squirrels would be disturbed if people started looking for the ring.
"We are quite concerned about loads of people trampling around," National Trust spokeswoman Debbie Pears told Reuters.
"We don't allow metal detectors on National Trust land and we are asking people to stay away so they do not disturb the squirrels."

SAN ANTONIO - A killer whale at SeaWorld repeatedly slammed its trainer underwater during a show that was captured on home video in dramatic footage aired this week.
The trainer, Steve Aibel, was not injured in the Friday incident.
The whale began slamming Aibel during the show, and other trainers rushed to the side of the tank. Aibel, who has trained the whale for 10 years, said he was surprised and is unsure what prompted the behavior.
But he said the whale, named Ky, is near breeding age and may have just been feeling his adolescent hormones.

OR MAYBE HE DOESN'T WANT TO LIVE IN BATHTUB ANYMORE. IT'S DIGUSTING WHAT WE AS HUMANS WILL SUBJECT ANIMALS TO JUST FOR OUR OWN AMUSEMENT.

SALT LAKE CITY - Two men planning to throw lighted fireworks from a car were burned when they forgot to roll down the window.
"They lit a large mortar rocket firework" and were going to throw it out the window, Salt Lake County sheriff's Sgt. John Barker said. "The passenger threw it out the window, but he forgot to roll the window down. It bounced back in his lap." Adam Weber, 24, was in fair condition Thursday at the Intermountain Burn Unit at University Hospital with second and third degree burns on his arms, legs and torso. "He's going to be in a lot of pain. I don't think it's life-threatening, but he's going to have a hard time. It's going to be a long process to get him healed up," Barker said. The driver, Jared Williams, only had minor burns to his back. The accident happened about 11:30 p.m. Wednesday. The investigation has been turned over to the Unified Fire Authority. An officer told KSL-TV any charges filed likely would be just misdemeanors.

HOW STUPID CAN PEOPLE BE? IS THIS GUY A NOMINEE FOR THE DARWIN AWARDS OR WHAT?

BLACKSVILLE, W.Va. - Warning: smoking in the toilet can be dangerous. A portable toilet exploded Tuesday after a man who was inside it lit a cigarette.
Emergency workers said the man was not severely injured and drove himself to Clay-Battelle Community Health Center. He was later transferred to Ruby Memorial Hospital. His name and condition were not available Wednesday.
The explosion, which occurred in Blacksville, resulted from a buildup of methane gas inside the portable toilet. The methane did not "take too kindly" to the lit cigarette, said a spokeswoman for Monongalia Emergency Medical Services.

I'D SAY THE METHANE TOOK VERY KINDLY TO IT.

Cubicle Land

The whole office is on alert as the highest ranking dude on site is due to arrive with some other big wig. I am wearing clunking ‘girl’ shoes as that is all I have to go with this outfit and damn are they uncomfortable. I’ve never been much for girl attire. I lack the delicacy required. So much of those fashions are uncomfortable and ridiculous. For example: The thong. Conceived of by men, worn by women. I shudder at the thought of having to wear one. I’d rather go commando.

 
Work: Work is slow. I have lots of time to amuse myself however I like (read the Economist, make list of must do’s, draw) and it’s quiet. I enjoy being an administrative assistant (glorified receptionist) much of the time. I really got into trouble when I began to have delusions of grandeur and wanted to move onto something with more responsibility. I ended up stuck in data entry. Locked away in a grey cubicle.
Now I’m back answering the phone, filling and shipping and I really need to go to school. It feels like if I stall much longer I will get stuck in this menial position forever. I probably will. There is really not far to go without education. It’s so important.

The Next Gold Star

PANIC!! I couldn't defer. It was terrifying.  My dreams being torn before my eyes.  Whatever they are.  I am still undecided. I have no savings and the deadline was rapidly approaching.  I believed (feared) I would be dropped from the program.  Luckily my Dad saved me just in time.  I look forward to paying him back.  My first day of School is Sept 7th.

BCIT: I’m really looking forward to going to school and the latest… THE LATEST… I never received my acceptance package although I know that I was accepted as I can see that online. I contacted someone in admissions and I was told that my package was mailed three weeks ago!! The ironic thing is that my landlord (who lives upstairs) works for Canada Post so there is almost no excuse for my not having received it….It must have been lost in the mail.
So there’s another new, exciting acceptance package comin’ to me.
Th bad news is that apparently my tuition was due last Friday. They can’t really mean that. Perhaps they began accepting tuition last Friday. Like they wouldn’t have taken my money before if I wanted to give it to them – geez – all I know is that I don’t have it so I have to come up with something fast. Defer this payment to a later date.

A not so recent me